Monday, July 25, 2005
Monthly Rollercoaster
I wish I could say that getting pregnant is an easy, fun experience. For some weird reason I didn't think it would be that hard considering that my mother and grandmother each had 5 kids. I have joked that I come from a long line of "good breeders". Somehow I have managed to have all the medical issues (vitiligo, breast lumps, scoliosis). I'm sure the pregnancy problem will be another thing to add to the list. For some reason I just know there's a problem.
Brian and I have been trying since May. We weren't super serious about it at first. Just going to see what happens. I was excited that first month. Bought a pregnancy test and everything. I feel so stupid about getting my hopes up about it. In June we were on vacation and I wasn't keeping track of anything, plus I had done a bit of drinking here and there, so I did not really want that to be the month it happened. July has come and gone and we tried really hard. I was keeping track of my temperature to determine ovulation. Thought everything was perfect. We tried on the days that I was suppose to be ovulating. I was way too excited. I jumped the gun and had Brian buy a pregnancy test on Saturday only to be disappointed to see the negative result. At first I tried to deny the outcoming thinking it was a false negative. Reality set in on Sunday when my period came. I can't handle this emotional rollercoaster. If trying to get pregnant is creating this much anxiety for me, I can't image how awful it will be if I actually do become pregnant.
Brian and I have been trying since May. We weren't super serious about it at first. Just going to see what happens. I was excited that first month. Bought a pregnancy test and everything. I feel so stupid about getting my hopes up about it. In June we were on vacation and I wasn't keeping track of anything, plus I had done a bit of drinking here and there, so I did not really want that to be the month it happened. July has come and gone and we tried really hard. I was keeping track of my temperature to determine ovulation. Thought everything was perfect. We tried on the days that I was suppose to be ovulating. I was way too excited. I jumped the gun and had Brian buy a pregnancy test on Saturday only to be disappointed to see the negative result. At first I tried to deny the outcoming thinking it was a false negative. Reality set in on Sunday when my period came. I can't handle this emotional rollercoaster. If trying to get pregnant is creating this much anxiety for me, I can't image how awful it will be if I actually do become pregnant.
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
He Makes Me so Happy
I am just so in love with my husband. He's happy, I'm happy.
Monday, July 18, 2005
The Half-Blood Prince
My weekend was awesome. It started on Friday when I got home from work and found a package of chocolate frogs from Jen Howell. How thoughtful and bloody brilliant is she? What a way to start the weekend!
Then that night we went to a fabulous Red Sox game where they squashed the Yankees 17 to 1. How can you not love that?
Then Brian stood in line at midnight for me at a local bookstore to buy me Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Am I the luckiest girl or what? Needless to say I was up early Saturday morning to begin reading. I was so excited for this book that it is hard to explain. I was like a child waking up on Christmas day. My heart was racing, I was nervous and excited all at the same time.
Since we were in the middle of a tiling project in our foyer, I had to take a break from reading to help Brian with the prep work for the area. We had spent last weekend breaking up the old slate tiles that were there. Since I was the one who really wanted this area retiled, I couldn't bail out and leave all the work to him.
We worked till noon then got cleaned up to go downtown. I had bent one of the prongs in my engagement ring, so we went to the jeweler who made my ring to have it fixed. It was such a relief to get it done, and she buffed it all up so that it looked shiny and wonderful. Then Brian wanted to have lunch at Parish Cafe...one of our favorite lunch places that has gormet sandwiches. We walked through Boston Common and Boston Garden to get there, which is always a fun thing to do. There is something about just having a nice lunch and chatting with Brian that makes me feel so in love.
Did some more reading later in the day and went to bed with 150 pages left of Harry Potter. I wanted to savor the reading. I read a bit more on Sunday morning but had to put it down to tile our foyer. We order a pizza for lunch during the middle of our project and had fun eating it on our front lawn watching our neighbors and giggling at people who were going to the open house up the street. It took us a while, but we got the floor installed perfectly. I really like the tile we picked out.
Finally I parked myself in a chair in the back yard and finished The Half Blood Prince. It was wonderful. I would have to say I wasn't disappointed at all. I had such high expectations for this book, since all the others were so great. JKR really is a master at her craft. I laughed, I cried, was nervous, scared...almost every emotion. The characters are just so wonderful. I wish I could be more explicit on how much I enjoyed this book. I'm sure I'll be reading it again soon! Can't wait to discuss the details of the book with friends.
Then that night we went to a fabulous Red Sox game where they squashed the Yankees 17 to 1. How can you not love that?
Then Brian stood in line at midnight for me at a local bookstore to buy me Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Am I the luckiest girl or what? Needless to say I was up early Saturday morning to begin reading. I was so excited for this book that it is hard to explain. I was like a child waking up on Christmas day. My heart was racing, I was nervous and excited all at the same time.
Since we were in the middle of a tiling project in our foyer, I had to take a break from reading to help Brian with the prep work for the area. We had spent last weekend breaking up the old slate tiles that were there. Since I was the one who really wanted this area retiled, I couldn't bail out and leave all the work to him.
We worked till noon then got cleaned up to go downtown. I had bent one of the prongs in my engagement ring, so we went to the jeweler who made my ring to have it fixed. It was such a relief to get it done, and she buffed it all up so that it looked shiny and wonderful. Then Brian wanted to have lunch at Parish Cafe...one of our favorite lunch places that has gormet sandwiches. We walked through Boston Common and Boston Garden to get there, which is always a fun thing to do. There is something about just having a nice lunch and chatting with Brian that makes me feel so in love.
Did some more reading later in the day and went to bed with 150 pages left of Harry Potter. I wanted to savor the reading. I read a bit more on Sunday morning but had to put it down to tile our foyer. We order a pizza for lunch during the middle of our project and had fun eating it on our front lawn watching our neighbors and giggling at people who were going to the open house up the street. It took us a while, but we got the floor installed perfectly. I really like the tile we picked out.
Finally I parked myself in a chair in the back yard and finished The Half Blood Prince. It was wonderful. I would have to say I wasn't disappointed at all. I had such high expectations for this book, since all the others were so great. JKR really is a master at her craft. I laughed, I cried, was nervous, scared...almost every emotion. The characters are just so wonderful. I wish I could be more explicit on how much I enjoyed this book. I'm sure I'll be reading it again soon! Can't wait to discuss the details of the book with friends.
